So, what does this girl do? Cry hoarse, for one. And amply drown any thoughts of everything away, with a large pizza, topped with extra cheese and doused with enough mayonnaise to slur my brain adequately. Because seriously, I don't want to think about it. It doesn't help. Never has. I know, it's easy to go "hey.. face it, dude..". No,I won't. And no it isn't easy. Or fair. Not in my favour, atleast.
It is extremely painful to look at certain things and then keep wondering why you were the chosen one for all that happened. Wondering ain't the bad part. Not getting the answers is. And I've done enough of it. Wondering, I mean. So, no thank you, this gal would rather settle down with her extra-large-cappuccino for now and readily savour frivolous chic-reads, rather than expend the mindforce on the unnecessary and extremely uncomfortable ravaging of the shreds of sanity she holds onto dearly.
7 comments:
heyyyyyy.....what happened chics?!!
why such a depressing post???
tell me tell me tell me....
probably the only thing that you should consider is the fact that everyone has a pile.. of some thing or the other
so what does the girl do?? i say cheer up and move on!n ofcourse, the cappuccino helps!
cheer up woman :)
@ Reb: hey..thanx for the concern. :)
A lot happened. But not all of sudden. It's just been one after the other..and it's the combined effect that's taking its toll on me for the past 2 years.
I have come to terms with it, mostly. So, chill..wasn't bawling or anything..just a lil' introspective.
@i.s.h: hehe..thanx. I guess it ain't easy to think about others' piles when you are myopic. lol..
Don't worry, am not sad really. But certainly, the cheering up helps. :)
but you still havent told me the reason why u r feeling the way you are....
hehe..too much stuff to finish off in a single comment or post.. I am working on being more expressive though.. As for now, can't seem to be able to describe it. Maybe lil' by lil'.. okay? :)
And stop being so sweet,dude. I might just get used to it. :P
Yeah I'm intimately familiar with the 'why me' syndrome.
And at the risk of sounding preachy or horrors! patronising, I try (and mostly fail) at practising what a Buddhist friend of mine once suggested...it was actually in a really well written article which I'll try and find...but it was something about how a lot of stuff that's really shitty and hard to bear gets a whole easier when you stop fighting it. Or asking yourself why me. If I just try and accept that IT IS SO, it doesn't necessarily change for the better. It just gets easier to live with. Something about not fighting the flow but going with it. I know it sounds all weird and new age-ish but on the rare occasions I've managed to even somewhat do it, I've found it helps.
Hope this does...
Hugs.
@ Shenanigans ->
Hey.. :) thanx for stopping by.
I don't find what you said, the least bit preachy or patronizing. I agree it does get easier to live with, if you stop asking the questions. I've stopped doing so, mostly. But then something happens ..n there poof goes my resolve to not let things bother me anymore. And trust me, I try hard to stick to not wondering. Like I admitted earlier, I am a true escapist.
The thoughts n hugs are much appreciated. :)
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